At the concert Rihanna did a cover of a song by M.I.A. I had no idea what the song was, but the people I went with, went crazy when they realized Rihanna was singing M.I.A’s “Paper Planes” and they knew the words. So ever since the concert this song has been stuck in my head, and I love it.
wow I just got back from the Glow In The Dark Tour, with Lupe Fiasco, N.E.R.D, Rihanna, & Kanye West!!! They are all fabulous artists that I love. & tickets were sold out, so we ended up buying someone else’s tickets on Stub Hub for a really high price. But I had so……. much…. FUN!!
Our seats were close to the stage, my family & friends were at the concert, And the Artists were CRAZY!!! they were so.. hyped (?hype? American slangs always confuse me, But they were Crunk!!! Crazy! Hyper! Wicked! Great!). The craziest part was going on stage. It was surreal! especially since we are normal size, and there were size zero Models around us & video dancers in the crowd. Pharrell is absolutely GORGEOUS up close. & N.E.R.D had so…. much energy. Lupe Fiasco sounded lovely, jumpes crazy high, and was awesome, I was a bit bummed I missed 30 minutes, the traffic to get into the arena was sick. Kanye had the stage look like a spaceship, and gave a fabulous performance, I can’t even express it right now. My friends made fun of me, that they could see me going crazy (they we’re about 20 seats away from me), and swore my hands would fall off.
It was lovely, I had fun, the concert started at 7.30pm May 4th, it’s currently 2.58am May 5th, so I’m really really tired. no after party for me. I also had a really great weekend, celebrations, family, friends & so much food 
ps: Honestly I wasn’t a big N.E.R.D fan, before, hardly knew any songs, but the performance was …(I have no words to express it) but lets say at the end of the week, I’ll know every song from their latest album, and their history.
pps: If you noticed I didn’t say anything about Rihanna. she looked pretty, seemed happy, loved her dancing, i think she sand an M.I.A song!!!! great body, lovely songs, and sweet, but in comparison to the other performers, she had the least energy, to get the crowd going crazy (don’t get me wrong, she was still a lovely performer!).
Hello Love,
I know I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been busy with nothing. actually I started LSAT classes, [God help me pass that exam please] and I had one of the best birthdays ever. I spoke to so much friends and family, my sisters, brother & friends came out to lunch with me. And everyone got me lovely gifts. I felt really loved and didn’t have to get trashed/ drunk to have fun.
I haven’t posted much because nothing funny, or unique has happened. and I don’t want to write just for writing sake. so don’t forget to subscribe so you’ll be updated on my next post.
Today while watching Lucky You with Drew Barrymore & Eric Bana, I remembered the goof stuff about guys. And even though many of the guys I dated ended up being shitty, it was fun in the beginning. You know, having a crush, and the guy liking you back [it feels like winning the lottery]. Or the best is: when it’s cold outside, and he gives you his jacket. Or if he doesn’t have a jacket, when he puts his arm around you. That always warms my heart especially if that’s our first date or first time we meet, and it makes the night feel enchanted. As if I’m in a fairy tale, and he could be my knight, it reminds me of chivalry and all that’s good.
Today I realized, I trust people. I trust everyone. I trust everyone I meet, that is until they give me a reason not believe them anymore and it hurts. It’s gullible, but its’ me. people say “why trust a stranger?” but I say “Why not?” especially if I want to be friends with them or date them. I wear me heart on my sleeve. And hopefully one day, I’ll find that person that will love me back, and play no games, and will always be honest with me, even when it hurts.
art/ cartoon: Pon & Zi (they are one my favorite cartoons, I love them) see them here
guess what!!!!???!! I PASSED MY DRIVER’S EXAM!!!!!! I now have a driver’s license!!
yay especially since this is my 2nd try. I actually drove worse than last time, even went over a curb, but YAY!!!!
thanks for everyone that supported me here when I failed miserably last time!!!
83/100 [passing is 75], last time 60-something/100
YAY!!!!!!!! My grandma gave me $300!!!! just like that, she made a good investment, and she shared money for her grandkids etc. I’m so happy! Am I going to save it? not really. Am I going to invest it? sort of (in my looks). What am I gonna buy!?! A LACE FRONT WIG!!!
You might think it’s crazy, because you have beautiful gorgeous hair! BUT for those of who want something different, and want to join the league of Beyonce, Top Models, Actresses, And the gorgeous hair brigade or some fabulous drag queens, without being detected then VOILA! (they are mostly undetectable and can be used by those with thining hair etc, I’m using it just for vanity!)
Regular wigs are cheap, about 20-50 dollars (I’m like the wig queen: halloween wig, half wig, full wig). but lace wigs are about $400-1000 dollars. Wanna know why watch this video! I’m aiming for one that is at most $500 dollars. Do not be shocked, I already wear extensions so this is only a step up [smiling from chin to chin] This is such a happy day!!! [insert faux tears of joy]. Sadly it can take 2weeks -5 weeks for a custom one. Haven’t decided who to buy from, but I have the cash, yay!
ps: I really hope who ever i buy from doesn’t con me. and it looks hot!!
How a Lace Wig is Made Video
Dirty Dishes: [sigh] I’m so beat! very tired. I feel like I’ve run a marathon, but all I’ve done is wash dishes. 9 dirty big bowls. those bowls were so nasty! Food has been in the basement fridge for months. Now my mum is back, and my sisters live on campus, so I had to wash it alone (luckily she & my brothers emptied out the grossness). I begged to just throw away the plastic containers with the rotten food, and buy new ones for the house because I’m lazy. we are meant to continue cleaning the fridge tomorrow, ick, I think it’s time to run to the library to study for the LSAT (law school entrance exam)
I also went job hunting today, I picked up applications from stores like Gianni Versace, Armani (not hiring now though) and Bebe. I need extra cash (don’t worry, still no ads on this site), and I also want an escape from my parents. I hope they hire me! but I have ZERO work experience. People say I should lie about the work experience. Good Gosh I graduated from college to work at the mall!! at least it’s close to my house, & IT’S MONEY! I hope they please hire me!!!
Internet guy: that F’er (fucker!!!) never called, and never came to visit. so i called him Friday evening, and he pretended like everything was great! I couldn’t believe his nerve. So I also pretended like I didn’t care. ARGH stupid boys!!! we used to talk everyday, and he didn’t call this weekend. Now every other guy is calling me, and I’m not interested in them.
My Birthday My sisters & cousins are having prom on my birthday. My parents are in so I can’t get trashed & go out looking slutty. My mum will be in Los Angeles. My little brother will back in boarding school. My Aunt will be in Africa. & my mum thinks getting a hotel room to party with your friends, is a weird idea. (sigh) Its next week Saturday I’m so bummed! (sigh) and I’m not in a relationship, so no lovely gift to look forward to (Thanks David)!!!!!
goodnite love’s, tomorrow will be a beautiful day! (today was honestly a great day, my mum cooked & I slept, and Tyrent has been so lovely)
original image by: newrambler
Tyrent arrived safely today, yay & he bought me perfume!! Chanel No.5, WOW that sounds so classy to say. Such a popular and old perfume, it also reminds me of saying “Love Potion No.9″. So i took a picture, with a cheesy background. It actually smells lovely!!! I can’t wait to wear it out.
(Cell Phone Picture, so low quality & blurry)
Like I promised yesterday, topics: Internet Guy & Potential Marriage Prospect?
Internet Guy, Q : So we’ve been talking, and he’s so… gorgeous. He’s actually into politics. PS:i do not follow politics at all. He’s into sports, I’m not, except ballroom dancing sometimes, soccer world cup, or any guy that is cute. He lives in Mississippi, which is a 5 hour drive, or about $400 + dollars to fly. I really like him, he seems to do relationships, he has his own house, he’s aggressive (which might be good or bad) and he’s hot! I’ll keep you posted. So there’s a 50% chance he’s coming down on Friday April 4th (tomorrow), so I told him to let me know by Thursday, emphasis on day! as in daytime. well it is 9.29pm and he hasn’t called? WHAT is wrong with guys! Kelly says I’m impatient, and I shouldn’t ruin a possible good thing, so I should just chill. So I’m going to try to ignore my phone, and I’ll be sweet when he calls, even though I feel like whooping his butt with a paddle. Gosh even internet guys are playing with my intelligence! but those 2 shirtless pictures on my cell phone from him, keep me warm at night, ha ha.
Marriage??
Well my mum’s friend brought a guy into my mum’s store. Apparently he’s interested in getting married, and was looking for good prospects. So my mum’s friend quicklydragged him to my mum’s store and my mum gave him my number! so my mum tells me, well if a guy called *name* calls you, answer! I’m thinking “what the fuck!” but then again, why turn a potential good prospect away? I ask for more info, like is the guy tall, short, fat, what? she says tall and dark. “Age?” she doesn’t know. “Last name? “to Facebook him? She doesn’t know. I ask “does he have a job, is he unemployed?” My mum goes, “Of course he has a really good job” in England. Hmm, do I want to move to England? I heard he’s meticulous, and really proper. We will see how that goes, if he ever calls me.
Oh yeah then my mum asked me about law school. i said well I’ll go next year 2009, and she freaked out. Asking me a bunch of questions, and told me I grumble too much, and dismiss a lot of stuff, when I no longer want to talk about this.
Fantasy Options to For Me to Feel Free
A) keep living in my parents house, and pray they fly in less, or get a maid & cook for this country
B) Go to Law School (this year), then I’ll have my own Condo ( but I feel so burnt out from school)
C) Get married & move away! (then that might be a new set of problems)
D) Get a Sugar Daddy, that’s gay & in the closet, so he’ll never sleep with me, just take care of me!!
ANSWER: A or D
Oh yeah I canceled my 2nd driving exam for my license.
So I’ll write about the Party & My “date” tonite (11.17pm here) & Internet guy (smiles), and potential marriage hookup tomorrow!
The party, sucked! Actually it was a lot of people, many short people (did you see the heels I wore, in the last 2 posts!, I’m 5′7.5 = almost 5′8) The musician that sang looked a bit muscular & gay in person (what a bummer). So I had my ex there, we hung out ’cause we are friends(, or at least trying to be).
[I’ll be back, my 3 yr old cousin just burst into my room & is chanting “computer”]
Okay so the party sucked. Most guys were dressed so…. so… (ugh what’s the word) Like they had no job, and were trying to hard to look cool, with fake bling; flat out bad style, sweaty, or spoke really badly.
[mum is screaming my name again!]
Ok I’m back. where was I. Oh so after the party I wanted to go back with my ex, but he didn’t get the hint. so i sent him 2 straight forward texts, and called him. But he said some crap like he was already at IHOP (24 hour diner) with friends, and he had to be courteous & stay because they ordered his food for him before he got there. WHAT THE FUCK!! food over sex?? Most guys would tell their friends they were really tired and had to go. Actually only 1 person was his friend. and 2 girls, one that liked him. Common, its like guaranteed ass =me, Vs. some chick your not into. At that point I was happy we were over, I want a guy that when i offer him some ass, he gets there!!!
My “Date” (Monday) with the ex: well it wasn’t really a date, but it sort of felt like it. David, my ex was having a bad day, so he called me. And being the good friend I am, I promised to cheer him up. I showered, got dolled up and we went to see the movie “21“, with him, at this dinner & a movie place. Flirted, kissed, everything, and went back to his place. Had sex twice. but considering I was satisfied in like a really short time, he never had an orgasm. Why is it only great sex if the guy has an orgasm, they don’t care if we are satisfied! when they’re done, they are done! so when I was done, I was satisfied! He claims you don’t always have to be in the mood to have sex, I was like erh?? I’m no longer dating you, I won’t have sex just to satisfy you when if I’m not horny. Were still good friends. He made fun of me, ’cause I was thinking of Internet guy while I was with him. Either ways that was the last time. I’m 97% over David, and I don’t see myself dating him anytime soon.
wow oh my gosh. I just got crazy news. I’ll tell you about the party after this. My sister just called, My mum is coming this Wednesday (April 2nd, which I knew) and Tyrent that I expected in 2 weeks is coming THIS WEEK THURSDAY (April 3rd)!
Tyrent= Tyrant Parent (coined by me). with him I have zero social life, I wake up every morning, cook & clean, and I can’t really stay out till 3/ 5am. Can’t spend the night with a guy, and I have to dress super conservative (no boobs, no ass, no shorts! cover up this hotness??!). He owns my life when he is here, I pay no bills, & I love him so I can never complain. But he’s staying till August.
[sigh] I spoke to Internet Guy for 3 hrs last night. (actually we have a friend in common, but we met on facebook, so he’s Internet Guy) He was meant to come April 19th weekend, but last night we moved it up to this weekend (I really like him a lot, Kelly screamed at his good looks when she saw him). Kelly was also meant to come, because he has hot friends, Engineers etc. But what am I gonna do now?!!! Tyrent is a tyrant, however benevolent. Good gosh I’ll be 23 next month!! and the last time I lived with parents[except this year] I was 10!
[ leaves screaming!] I really need meditation CD’s, or I have to run and look for a job in the next 3 days before he comes back! so I won’t be on house arrest. have you noticed things never really work out the way I plan it? I love Tyrent I really do, it’s just he treats me like I’m 5. I pray they have a safe trip. If anything bad happens to my parents I’ll feel it’s my fault, & God is punishing me 
ps: Just incase you can’t wait for me to calm down & post about the party, I didn’t screw my ex, but trust me, i tried to several times.
okay so I said par-tay, like I don’t do it everytime. But you have to understand, My Mum will soon fly into the country! Meaning goodbye boys, goodbye slutty clothes, goodbye waking up at 1pm, oh my gosh, and goodbye sex?
So this is what I’m wearing! It looks so.. hot! DD boobs, no bra (because it’s a corset) , insert sexy thong, hopefully cute guys who buy me drinks, and I pray I don’t go home with my ex! (he told me he’s going to the party, & he lives about 7 minutes away from my house a.k.a he could drop me home from the party)
I edited this with Polvore (It took forever to find my exact outfit! I need to get a job)
ps: Hmm still can’t decide if I should wear black shoes instead
